-sometimes when you really lost hope; no matter how much you do, you can never fnd it back.
i am currently risking my life by studying in RP. i know i know, there's already 57 cases in RP. we make up the new cluster and also 1/10 of h1n1 cases in singapore. and they are still not closing the school for our lives.
when you get h1n1, you will only be able to know it after 7 days and the symptoms will slowly show out during these 7 days.
so imagine if one has h1n1 and he/she is unaware of it, walk around the school and live like a normal student, aint the rest of students being put in danger? well, i am not saying that this person is not responsible but shouldnt the school be more responsible and put our lives first? i dont know how RP thinks but personally i just feel that it's very risky to not have the school shut for a period of time.
3 years ago, i thought i will never move on without morier by me.
but as time passes, as people enter and leave my life, i realise that life doesnt just revolve around him.
because with him or without him, life still have to go on. you still have to school, eat, play and live life as per normal. but no one had ever make me forget him and no one had ever make me move on until someone came in.
yes, its my bf, kl.
to speak the truth no matter how much i love my bf, i'll still not forget morier.
this is because he taught me alot in this 3years. okay, maybe not him, but the 3 years of waiting had taught me many love lesson and life-long lesson. i cant speak myself like a love saint. but i can tell you, these 3 years wasnt easy and was never easy. its all in the past.
if its not for morier, i wouldnt learn much and know how much it's like to be waiting, to love someone and when nothing comes back, it's the faith and love that keeps you going.
i'll keep this all in my heart and never to commit the same mistakes again.
now, i've a bf and i realise how far i can go with him and how much things i can do for him.
it's different from morier. for morier, i was always trying to go back to the past, trying to amend things and hope to start afresh with him. for kianleong, i wasnt trying to go back to the past nor treat him as a sub; treat him like morier. in fact, i was looking forward to my everyday wiith him, looking forward to our future and how to love him more.
many may think that i treat him as a sub as i keep mentioning abt morier and it's a sudden decision.
oh well, i dont have to account anything to anyone. i know i love him.
the love for him is different from morier because they are different. the things that he can do to make me laugh may not be what morier can. but! he is definitely doing better than morier (oops!) its all about different people, different perspective.
and now i say this:
morier hartino is my past. and you, thong kianleong, will be everything now and my future!
i dont know how long can we go, but i hope it will be forever. i know you dont believe in forever, i'll show you forever. you know how much i love you. LUBB LUBB (our secret code).
lets walk together till we age and die.
finally after so long, i get to say my piece of mind. maybe some will feel that all these are words, saying is easy doing is hard, blah blah.
you know what, love just takes 2,both him and me.
so no matter what others gonna say and do, it will not affect us. and keep all these comments to yourself (i know its rude. sorry).
hahah. super long post.
till then people ((:
*RIP, our pop star; you're the soul of music; michael jackson.
