- what's right and what's wrong?
life had been great for the past few days. this sem had officially ended for those schooling in RP.
well, life had been great because i've been burying myself with work, so i wouldnt have the time to think so much.
i guess i wouldnt be doing much updates from now on. let this be a proper one.
last weekend was plain for me. national day was a homey day i should say. stayed home the whole day, watched the ndp on TV. pretty much boring, because i slept through the day. kept thinking about the past 2 national days. days spent with him. unfortunately, this year was spent, not with him or anyone else.
so sunday was much better, went out with cheng to get some stuff, headed over to yongqiang's crib to get coach's birthday present done.
monday headed over to vivo, to get the other stuff. and so i decided to head over to fig and olive to pay a visit.
i guess things do change and people move in and out of your life. no one i knew in the past, stayed in fig. new faces. oh well, the new manager asked me if i wanna join them back and is willing to pay me 6 to 6.50per hour. and stupidly i agreed -.-
i'm a slave for money.
tuesday was coach's birthday,celebrated for him and the surprise party went pretty smoothly, except for the cake. sorry coach, i dont know you dont take sourish stuff ): my bad. everything went great except for the bad attendance that makes me feel like crying. )))):
wednesday and thursday were seriously shag to the max! i swear!
running from airport all the way to vivo and back home. whoa, i had like less than 8hours of sleep for both days. i'm tired, seriously.
friday which was few minutes ago.
had work at airport, pretty lucky that i do not have to go vivo. after work, headed down to a birthday party with mia. joined auggie and rebekah there. well the party was great, with DJ and bartender had a drink or two. but i was too worn out to enjoy anything.
and had not been eating well, skipping meals or not even eating.trying very hard to save.
i'm sick, seriously. be it mentally or physically )):
had been reading this book, 'the kite runner'. interesting book, worth buying and reading (:
oleary and training tomorrow. they told me they will be down for training and i'm mentally prepared to have less than the exact amount turning up for it. i'm too tired, seriously tired.
no more motivation. they stole it away ):
deep down:
i had been wondering alot for the past few days. couldnt shut my mind up.
well, deep down inside i feel uneasiness. i've many questions to ask but i dont know where to start it from. or should i say i've no ideas what to ask. every other night is the same. tossing and turning, couldnt get to sleep.
i dont know what i want from you neither i know what you want from me. kinda stress up in here.
couldnt find any words to say out whatever i feel.
even i could find the words, who's gonna listen? hmm.
the pain i feel )):
oh boy! shutting up myself from others.it's just gonna be me, work and rugby.
no friends, nothing. i feel much happier keeping things to myself and crying out alone.
'when you kill a man, you steal a life. you steal his wife's right to a husband, robs his children of a father.
when you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to know the truth.
when you cheat, you steal the right to fairness.
and you took my heart away, stealing my right to love you.'
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