- now who's gonna listen to my story?
i guess 2008 isn't my year. things keep coming in,and each time it hit me real hard. before any wound heals, a new one appear. as hard as i try to pick up these mess, it gets worse. people around dont seems to understand.no one bothers to hear me out. friends around me are doing it worse, rubbing salt into my wounds. each time i pick myself up, i fall harder and deeper the next moment. now who's gonna listen to my story and hear me cry?
i know there are some who care. but i cant afford to misplace this trust again.
i wonder how long more i can hold on. it's tough and had never been easy.
bottling things up,keeping things to myself and things that i cant speak about. it feels bitter to hold these back, and it feels worse to hold tears back in front of people.
each and every night, i cried to myself. this silent cries do hurt me alot.
people just keep mentioning about my past when i'm trying to be better.
this time, things really hit me hard,real hard. and friends aint doing much help to it.
dear lord, please tell me what should i do? it feels awful and bitter to hold things back.
everyone has their weak side no matter how strong they are. and i'm weaker than anyone of them.
please tell me what to do and who to trust,
tonight i wrote this post up because i dont know who to turn to. i hope and pray that lord could hear me from above. lord, please make this better and make me feel better.
thanks mia, for making my day better,without you and him, i guess i wouldnt be any stronger.
i sincerely hope and pray that lord will answer to my prayers and hear my story.
