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Friday, August 3, 2007
10:08 AM


okay, last night spent the time with arvindt and friends. i got so irritated that i yelled at them. OMG! will they just stop saying about me and Roy. is like so irritating.
went home around 12.30 am. that's freaking early.
after that he called. supposedly i wanted to meet him but i cant go down, my parents dont allow. then i was darn sad cause it was sort of not fated and to wait for him to be free again will be like months later. okay and so i went cursing people again and i think he was abit angry cause sort of indirectly cursed his brother.
talk to girlfriend. and she goes, ROY ROY and still ROY!
then she says if i dont lock my blog, many people will start reading and blah blah blah, then people i dont know will start tagging me again! but i don care.
literally i was late for school again! i was never early. so as what nelly mentioned in my testimonial, i must put in some effort to make myself study and goes to school early(: hopefully i can. if like that, i must sleep darn early, like 9 plus? cause when i sleep at 10, i still couldnt wake up. my! such a pig!
so i was late and i gave that stupid excuse that i went back to northbrooks therefore i'm late. and the worse thing, is VB today, shouldnt even come school at all. i'll be leaving school at 12 plus to go back to yishun, to meet khatib brothers, to send arvindt off! and there goes my stupid excuse to the faci again, ' i need to go MOE to help northbrooks settle some stuff!'. feel darn bad to lie! but i still lied! so ironic! i must stop lying to faci and start going to school! heard yesterday they tried contact rugby, luckily i didn't go! ha!
arvindt is taking 7.30 om flight, so i guessed by the time i reach home will be midnight again! i'm missing my bed again.

arvindt, bon voyage. may things goes well for you(:


missed. that's all i can say.

why do i always miss it.
i only ask for one last chance to
embrace him, to hold him tight.
but all just seems so impossible.
and there it goes again.
closing up myself day by day.
make it possible tomorrow for me.
please.
i begged.

i weeped and i'll still stand strong. just like my heart.